life is dope, screw me!

This is super awesome, according to my resolutions below.. i can say i'm starting to think a human... and not like an ice-cream stick

2; Exterminate the Love-handles, think Rihanna

3; Save enough for a Holiday trip to Bangkok, "Trip for TWO" ;D

4; Get a BETTER job, screw F&B bitch..

5; Appreciate life, like seriously.. LOVE life cos it's like the shit..

6; Join Singapore idol

7; Start financing, abit..

8; Buy a new phone

9; Love my family

10; Love you more each day

11; Try to catch more sleep every night

12; Enjoy life like a whore.. haha.. but only with you

just kill me moron..

die, die, DIE...

im dying of hell..

i wanna kill myself...

BAD BAD BAD BAD day

BAD BAD BAD BAD mood

BAD BAD BAD BAD PMS

why, why oh fucking why?

why do i have such bad taste in everything i do????

Wallets? Shoes? Bags? Guy stuffs? Girls stuff?

Why do i always do the FUCKING |WRONG THING AT THE WRONG FUCKING TIME??!!??

DIE DIE DIE..

JUST KILL ME, JUST FUCK OFF AND DIE IN MY HOLE...

Isuckballsofhell

Leave me alone, let me die of PMS.......

I'll ride you like a dildo bunny ;D

im full of random-hornyness, and that's a good thing

so many days have passed since i last kissed and hugged your sexy belly, miss you more than ever ;D texting and calling and spamming your phone and msn with random, mushy messages.. it's the thing i do, and that's what i do the best ;D

without you, my King, love is over-bounded.. restricted to the four lonely walls of my heart..

the simplest thing you say or do for me creates the biggest, grandest fire-work display within me.. miss you crazy, love you overload ;D

Love you, Love you, Love you

im sick of how everthing is so different just because of that small little thing.. i hate you, "small little thing".. you screw up everything.. and thanks for always being there for me when i didn't need you and and never showing up when the time comes.. it's not just a different world we're in, it's like a different dimension, two separate entity.. while the world's pushing forward, you're moving on, leaving me behind.. rooted in time's useless values..

Ciao, im sorry im too tired of this wait and hatch game.. always facing this new facade of yours, so dead and cold.. it's like a new language we communicate in, like it's the new trend or something.. why? give me an answer before you just turn and walk away.. if you insist, the door is always there.. i'll be obliged to show you the way out..

Starvation, under-fed, stupid hair and a 12 year old kid's stick-on skull tattoo..

Oh, and did anyone realise the fact that ppl are now taking near-naked pictures of themselves

wearing their underwear and posting em on the internet? i hope your mom sees this, cos you're asian.. asian people like us don't look as good as blondes or blue eyes with a crazy hairstyle like that.. anyway, i'd have to say that that's a pretty effective way of publicising your moblie number on a nation-wide scale.. Then have 70% of the male population calling you at 3am asking for discreet services for em cos they're too poor to afford a whore.. Once again, i sincerely hope that your mum sees this shit that your doing to yourself.. maybe she'll give you a tip on getting tattoos that won't gross people out when you're 85 years old bitch.. people like you make me sick to the ass-bones.. get a life Bone-Chick.. and oh, damn.. what the fuck happened to your boobs? they fell off on their own?? That's fucking sad bitch, go opt for implants yeah ;D

Oh yeah, i tried calling that squiggle of number you wrote in your hand.. couldn't even manage to dial, maybe you're busy getting screwed in your ass or something..

miss u overload too, my dear humanoid honeydewy boyfriend..

hahahaha, just laughing at how bogart ironic my life is till now.. it's so stupid i'd make it into a comedic intro for Mr ole beans' newest english sitcom.. back back back, rewind to the last time i brushed my teeth before bed, i swear i was swearing to lose the lumps of love handles clinging on to my tummy.. it seemed like an accomplishable goal, realistic enough if i were to stop my crazy "i crave foods" eating habit and exercise 3 minutes more each day.. *bottomline*- 3mins.. 5 minutes later : i walked out of the loo and saw heaps of moist, warm chocolate muffins (freshly baked ones).. AND, savagely took down 5 of them in a row, PLUS, went to bed with chocolate stained teeth cos i felt lazy and sleepy.. OR, perhaps it's just the overload of late-night chocolate muffins taking it's satisfactory effect on my tummy ;D

How i wish i could be a vampire, least they don't seem like they'd be bothered by nuisancial things like Low-prepaid value, looking like an old granny 50 years down the road or growing fat..

cos all they do is suck blood and don't think drinking alot of blood will get you any fatter than Paris Hilton or Taylor Swift.. i think im sick of the songs on MTV, so many skanky sluts gyrating their asses on national TV and being played over and over again all over the world.. i wish for real music, just something alive and interesting.. like somthing that goes down well, like "miss u overload".. like yeah, like seriously, totally maaan.. im soooo writting a song called miss u overload..

why is the world doing this to meeeee..

i feel so lonely without hearing your voice since this afternoon.

this is not normal, it's unusual and i hate this

no prepaid + no cash to top up + no msn + no more TOUFUUUU..

just kill me, and take my last breath away like how you guys take toufu away from me..

4 years of our friendship was destroyed, to think that i won't get to hug you in my arms and

smell your stinky scent or hear your panicky panting anymore, i swear im gonna cry..

i miss my chihuahua.. *sighsssss*

i love my dog, i swear.. even though i haven't been treating him very well, i still see him like my own baby and family.. i guess im just gonna miss you terribly from this day on.. get used to life without your name, get used to home without you in the house.. take care you dick ;D hope you get along fine with furbell and hennessy at aunty kheng's house.. im sure she'll treat you llike 50 times better than how i did.. but just want to let you know, behind all the smacking and screaming, i really really love youuuuuuuuuuu....

i don't care if you peed outside my door or lick your genitals on the sofa..

cos now i won't get to see you do that shit anymore..

despite how much i wish i could now... ;C

Anyway, enough about Toufu..

im seriously trying to get him out of my mind for now, think about something else and all that..

i just feel like burying myself in a burrow.. cos i feel miserable, i hate the job that i have, i hate to have to earn so little, i hate it when i can't see you for a day or even hear your voice.. i didn't mean what i said today, if i could i'll take everything back.. sorry i said such stupid stuffs today, i was just behaving like an idiot that's all.. i went out with my parents to toa payoh, we went to have a karaoke session till 2am.. tried calling you when i see your missed calls, but you didn;t pick up.. guess you're soundly asleep now, goodnight baby.. i'll see if i can go over to your place tmr.. cos i seriously need a HUG asap.. i need to cheer up, i need You to cheer me up ;D

Love you HoneyDewSago master ;D

i swear you rock my world..................................... ;X

xoxo

Hey Hobbits ;D

I FINALLY WENT FOR SUNDAY SERVICE..

this is after a super long time that i haven't been going to church man

i was sooooo emotional, i cried, smudged my eyeliner, then cried somemore..

im back guys ;D

Celebrated nikki's birthday right after service, then together with Paul and others, we went down to Pasir Ris for a okiedokie-cooking workshop ;D

CHEESECAKE mann.. we learnt how to make our own NY cheesecake and turns out, i realised that making cheesecake is not so much of a fuss MOM.. cheap, good and yummy cheesecakes are rather easy and fast to make ;D feasible alternative for a costly b'day pressie huh?? lol..

yesTURDday, Jireh and i went to Shah's place at Bali Lane for some shishah + booze ;D

cabbed home and reached at 1.48am.. THANK GOD my mom was in her chill-mode man, if not i'd be facing a cold dark death.. like, WTH man.. curfew's 12 beech... however i guess Nabins is still and ultimately a nice place to chillout man, good music, exquisitely decored and authentic arabian food with booze + shisha together with a bombshell NS bloke who keeps looking out for hot models to make friends with, the night was rather doopeshit.. but unfortunately for him, shopping turns out to be the last thing on our minds ;DD and, no luck in his quest to win a date with a model, or any chick...

okay.. school's tmr maan... shit uhhhhh

hope i get to wale up in time i guess ;DDD

GOSH FAG.

im sure you don';t know how i feel..

not to point fingers at anyone, but YOU just soooooooo conveniently FUCKED ME UP!

RAJ ,

im begging you asshole, just fuck off my life and DIE

i don't need any motherfucker to tell me what to do.

i know you're a motherfucking BIG FUCK in the past

but i REALLY REALLY REALLY don't need you to tell me off

at every FUCKING thing i do.. i don't give a fuck on what you think

you can go suck some fucking balls and fuck some bloody

disgusting GEYLANG OR KALLANG WATEVER FUCKING whore for all i care.... just don't you DARE EVER touch me..

YOU DIRTY MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!

FRIEND ,

FUCK OFF.. thanks for being such great FRIENDS ;D and replacing my only existence with some fucking PUNANI whom you claimed you FUCKING hated........ but UN- hated after a fucking lifetime.. i love you guys for being such two-faced dickheads and treating me like fucking spats of birdshits which you revolt at sight.. thank a whole lot dumbasses.. thanks for barely contacting me for 100 years and embracing that FAGGOT.. ;D come lick my shit you fucking blowjobs.. cunts

THE IIDIOTS WHO JUST WANT SEX ,

thanks for fucking around, now.. GO GET SOME AIDS YOU FUCKING FAGGG...

don't expect me to give you any honey... im not so fucking RETARDED to go lick your disgusting BALLS wormhole..

YOU,

maybe you should start putting yourself in my fucking shoes. im a FUCKED UP girl, LOSER in life and fuckingly in LOVE with you.. i've got problems you don;t even KNOW OF. and i try my fucking best to hide them becos i don;t wanna let you think how fucked up is this bitch you're in love with. i hate myself for all the empty promises i've made.. IMMA GO FUCK MYSELF FOR THAT.. but maybe, JUST maybe.. try putting yourself in my stinking damned shoes and you'll understand why i FUCKING wanna go stick a cow up my ass .. im sick and tired of myself, hence i need to fucking drown myself in alcohol, ciggs and cow dung shits and LIES.. im just as fucked up as you feel.. WHERE ARE YOU? you know how FUCKING much i need you now???? i wanna shit myself in the pants.. IT'S SOOO PAINFUL THAT I CAN BARELY HEAR MYSELF SCREAMING.. yes i've hurt you alot.. but does that shows that im a selfish bitch who just wanna kill you and see you die?? well, just so you know.. IM IN JUST AS MUCH PAIN TOO ;D whether you understand or not.. Bottom line : i love you more than anything else in this world.. other that God, my Mom and satisfaction.. and i hope this is gonna make you understand.

MAMA:

God know what the fuck to do with you.. talk about fucking ETHICS. woo, too bad.. doubt you have any FUCKING idea about that.. you are a fucking annoying piece of SHIT you know that??go get a fucking life before you retire as a piece of shit.. STOP RUINING MY LIFE.. i wanna earn money to support myself too you know that FUCKER? now everyone is as FUCKED up as you FATASS MOTHER OF ALL SLUTS>>>

just kill me and take me away from this raging storm.. i'd rather die than get drowned by all these problems.. work life relationships and habits.. whatever happened to LIFE.. the friendlier one, i mean..

Ps: thanks JIN for being such an AWESOME dude for me ;D keep smiling and maybe you'll cheer me up too ;D

yar, i know i look like a tranny here ;D

why is life so stagnant man, so boring, so stupid

why does the emptiness grow within me

despite my many attempts to drown it with poison

how does the streets remain so cold

when many people have walked on it?

holy crap, it's time to get holy drunk

if you think you're well defined enough to

draw the line for me,

just try me, you bloody mother of losers..

i'll make sure you get screwed by 2 horny donkeys

one ; in the hind and one in the face till you're 85.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXXOXO

but still, looking on the brighter side;

least you still have your sugar babies to

pump you up every night,

enjoy your exotic fetish while you still can..

Before you have to eat macaroni off horses' behinds.

that's just a cup of tea against what you put me through ;D

thanks a whole lot bunch, Dumbass..

i bet i'll make a hell of a good mommy..

and you can feed them carrots when they get old..

Im being replaced by the stupid loser of all mother bitch.. my goodest friend is robbed away from me, boy am i fucked up dudexz..

It's final, we are broken once again. like how we were before.. what the hell is wrong with you idiots bodohhhxxxx...

went to celebrate Syaza's b'day at AMK dude ;D

with john, mary, jane, and peter.

with a mixture of chocolate cake, teddy bear, ciggies and a bad hangover.

it was a pleasant afternoon spent at roaming the streets of AMK till evening.

went to meet ilyas sexy hair with syaza banana at lavenda blues.

and went back together with ilyas sexy hair.

told him about my hangover story.

laughed my ass off lah fucking blowjob.

i need to earn some bloody cash now.

i need fucking lobang for jobs mann...

im sooo darn poor now maaaaaan...

ahhhh.. shit you...

i realised i've got no more prepaid

&

i really really really miss my boyfriend alot.

been 2 days since i saw him.. ;C

exams are fucking blowjobs.

fucking booonajuuup..

i need some weed to survive this shit..

i feel as though im being replaced..

slowly,

one by one..

friend by friend..

all along,

i realised,

i was just a stand-in for those who were never there..

just a replacement for those who are gone..

now that they're back..

it seems like it's time..

i feel,

fucking insecure..

like

im standing still in time;

while they're all moving forward,

standing appears to be retarding..

results in a hole,

eating me up,

looming into a retreat.

then i'll be nice and blow it out for you..

it's so nice to feel lovey-dovey..

hokay, today is random..

the cat at the car park is high, cos it kept humping the hose i use for washing the car.. so i tried to push it away using my feet.. hah, animal society should get a shit load of that man.. im bored like fuck.. i feel some sort like a lowlife, cos it's saturday and im stuck at home the whole bloody day.. so boreddddd.. how i wish you were here, next to me so i can share this nice crispy, golden chicken nugget that im eating with you.. it's yummy, i swear~

what a non-exciting day.. drifting in and out of sleep is what i've been doing.. watch tv straight for 4 hours mannn.. i swear it's so sad to have washed my dad's car and not get paid for that.. i feel so used and cheated for doing this chore for him for free.. gaaaaaaah, i wonder what are my friends doing? im sure anything beats me sitting infront of the stupid computer doing this shitnut post.. prolly doing something exciting and dope like camping, drinking or out at town , wadever.. Anyway, church service's tmr.. wooohoops! and after that, im prolly gonna come straight home and stone bitch.. how exciting tooo :D k that's all bitch... im gonna go talk to my boyfriend cos i miss him ;D yes, go die of jealousy putra.. ngahahahah.. and syaza, you better wear a dress on monday if not i will staple your nose! haha k byes!

FYI : i do miss you as much as you think i do cos it's true ;D

FYYI : i lurb euus idiot..

it's like jaggish and like sharp.. cos i ran my lip under it.. ppl are gonna tell meand IT'S SHARP LAHHHH.. i think i can use it to slash my wrist cos it's like so fucking sharp.. FUCKEDUPSEY!!! now how the fuck am i supposed to smile and camwhore???? i've got a freak-tooth... cos it's like fucked up and freakish.. but i seriously doubt it's gonna like freak ppl out like how fucking amywhineyfuckinghouse did to kids..

I wanna tell you this, but please don't jump out of your sit and start stabbing my chest.. PLEASE!!!!

1. I do smoke, infact i've been smoking since i was 13. Then i quitted. Then i picked it up again.

2. Yes, i did take the $50 note in the drawer.

3. I've got a tattoo. It's been there for a year now.

4. Sometimes i do call you Fuckingpunani behind your back.

5. Usually when i say "i won't do it again" i usually do do it again.

6. It's true that i've never changed abit. Still the same old moron i use to be despite telling you 500 times that i will change.

7. I've never had a CCA in my school

8. Whenever i don't pick up your calls, it doesn't really mean my battery's flat. It's just because i don't want to.

9. I do borrow some of your heels and blusher sometimes.

10. I haven't been reading the bible.

i know it's real fucked up to be my mom. but I am who I AM. If i say i'll change and not lie to you ever again then im a BIG FAT FUCKING DICK-FACE BEECH.. but still, a change is a must. even a retard knows that. it's just in the matter of time, GIVE ME SOME TIME WOMAN.. i don;t know when it's gonna happen, i seriously don't know.. but i WILL.. i fucking will.. maybe at least till im done with ITE...

i think my life is dope.. getting wasted on a daily basis while my classmates are pokemons and brother thinks his a half-wolverine.. anyway, i just struck NEA today.. woohooo.. two indian motherfuckers tailed me all the way from the bus stop to the old chang kee stall at simei mrt and flashed their shiny cards in my face..apparently, i littered my ciggie butt among the bush at the bus stop and im still motherfucking seventeen bitch.. 2 stupid indians.. iwannakillyoubitch.. but i still bought my old chang kee anyway ;D first HSA, now NEA.. i think the government loves me so they wanna catch my sorry ass committing sorry crimes everyday.. oh government, i love you too ;D

im bored.. can someone sms me?

you must know it's hard to get over you, so be patient.. it's not as bad as it seems.. really, just give me some time and i'll walk out of your lives.. and after that, things are gonna be alright for you guys.. but untill then, i'll be waiting for you in montauk.. i don't know when you'll come.. the chances are small and it seemed like forever, but buried deep in my heart there stands a flicker of hope.. that is the phrase " meet me in montauk.." that you said to me a long time ago.. a promise we made in montauk and ends in montauk.. i hope you'll come.. i really do..but untill that days comes, i'll be waiting for you in montauk..

life's wonderful except im getting fucked tomorrow by my teacher.. i skipped school for 2 days and i didn't get covered by MC.. and i skipped the last 2 lessons for today ;D Awesome shit... im soooo getting fucked tmr beeeetch.. mr fucking ramu wants to fucking see me fucking tmr.. shit you knnnnnnn.... how the fuck am i supposed to explain myself and save my ass..? gaaaaaaah.. screw you old groggy fucker.. How dare you call my house? i seriously regret not faking up a number for my home line in my student bio-data form... and i don't think my efforts in hacking into the student's bio-data system and change all my contact details would work.. now i've gotta go get myself an MC.. and get fucked tmr.. plus i can't skip Sports and Wellness tmr... cos the angry dude's gonna look for me during SW class.. gwaaaaaaah.. shit you mother fucker... now im so pissed at myself i wanna go on a fucking killing spree..

jhgfihiphgjndfklgbkmmfkgkgk... yup ;DD

tomorrow at 8 o'clock

whose name is Bob

i guess, i don't wish to have a shot.

well i wouldn't mind if its tequila

or anything that's sweeta.

it's fuck today.. my spine is at it's breaking point after it went through all that stress yesterday.. i woke up with a blimmey-splitting headache and found an empty tissue box over my head and plentyfull of used tissues won-tons littered all around me bed and on the floor.. hurhur.. even till now, my arms hurts to even type..

this is what happened yesterday:

i got my dad to send me to work at 11am

it was bloody mother's day and was tragically busy at the restaurant.

awesome shit to expect on the first day of work, the first bloody time i set foot onto this place.. no interviews, no long briefings, trainings or whatsoever.. just a short run through of table numbers, how to do a fucking order and kapish.. i worked my ass off for 11 bloody hours.. i might probably just ruined the day for a couple of peeps.. spilling sour cream and ice water on their nice, clean shirts and shopping bags.. now i start to think if FNB is where i should be..

anyways, i think my manager loves me.. he think's life's just too mundane and dul for me and he got me to do this to help me spice-up my life and all ;D oh wait.. it's my bloody job.. oh yea~ fuck on Mr. manager, i love the way you add stress into the life of your poor workers (eg. me).. with all the fucks , shits and lovely cheebyes in your daily vocabulary.. rock on beetch~

What happened today:

went to watch wolverine with john ( Devil wears prada ) at boogies today.. the movie was rather bad.. it had no link to the first x-men movie lah fuck.. bloodyhell, i paid 6 bucks for this and all i got was huh? what the fuck? at the end of the movie.. but then again, i love you hugh jackman... i love the way your crotch stood up even though you passed out after being shot by the fucker, victor... wooohooo... you're shooo hot... ngahahahahhahah ;D after that we went to have dinner at the kopitiam near my place.. then talked cock and smoked.. went home and the vengeful fever came back again.. how i wish i could go to bed now..

thanks john (devil wears prada)

for sacrificing your monday evening for me ;D

you da man..

anyway, here's what happened yesterday at bishan: as usual, my classmates were happily walking to our usual lepak session block outside of school- syaza, julie, putra, me and ira ;D i had a stick in my mouth and was happily singing nobody but you to atira from 5metres away and screaming who got lighter agghhh??? and right after that the dude from HSA had to search our bags for ciggs and screen our ICs.. waddefuck? of course, we all threw our stashes into the bin with super sonic speed while the dude was busy talking to the rest of the guys.. thank god i took the stick out of my mouth cos i felt something was not right.. it really was just not right.. oh yeah, it was atira's IT'S HSA laa cheebye... face.. hahaha ;D.. in the end, we were let off easy cos no one was caught smoking ecp toyol..but then again, his legal.. so yaa.. no biggie ;D

we were still in the mood for apple-pies and double-cheeseburgers ;D or subway..

where to go later? i must spend my saturday wisely man..

ohhh.. i shall go meet up with Wan and go drinking at clarke quay tonight!!!!

ngahahahahahahahaaa...

screw you bastard..

least get paid for being a cuntwhore ;D