life is dope, screw me!

went to celebrate Syaza's b'day at AMK dude ;D

with john, mary, jane, and peter.

with a mixture of chocolate cake, teddy bear, ciggies and a bad hangover.

it was a pleasant afternoon spent at roaming the streets of AMK till evening.

went to meet ilyas sexy hair with syaza banana at lavenda blues.

and went back together with ilyas sexy hair.

told him about my hangover story.

laughed my ass off lah fucking blowjob.

i need to earn some bloody cash now.

i need fucking lobang for jobs mann...

im sooo darn poor now maaaaaan...

ahhhh.. shit you...

i realised i've got no more prepaid

&

i really really really miss my boyfriend alot.

been 2 days since i saw him.. ;C

exams are fucking blowjobs.

fucking booonajuuup..

i need some weed to survive this shit..

i feel as though im being replaced..

slowly,

one by one..

friend by friend..

all along,

i realised,

i was just a stand-in for those who were never there..

just a replacement for those who are gone..

now that they're back..

it seems like it's time..

i feel,

fucking insecure..

like

im standing still in time;

while they're all moving forward,

standing appears to be retarding..

results in a hole,

eating me up,

looming into a retreat.

then i'll be nice and blow it out for you..

it's so nice to feel lovey-dovey..

hokay, today is random..

the cat at the car park is high, cos it kept humping the hose i use for washing the car.. so i tried to push it away using my feet.. hah, animal society should get a shit load of that man.. im bored like fuck.. i feel some sort like a lowlife, cos it's saturday and im stuck at home the whole bloody day.. so boreddddd.. how i wish you were here, next to me so i can share this nice crispy, golden chicken nugget that im eating with you.. it's yummy, i swear~

what a non-exciting day.. drifting in and out of sleep is what i've been doing.. watch tv straight for 4 hours mannn.. i swear it's so sad to have washed my dad's car and not get paid for that.. i feel so used and cheated for doing this chore for him for free.. gaaaaaaah, i wonder what are my friends doing? im sure anything beats me sitting infront of the stupid computer doing this shitnut post.. prolly doing something exciting and dope like camping, drinking or out at town , wadever.. Anyway, church service's tmr.. wooohoops! and after that, im prolly gonna come straight home and stone bitch.. how exciting tooo :D k that's all bitch... im gonna go talk to my boyfriend cos i miss him ;D yes, go die of jealousy putra.. ngahahahah.. and syaza, you better wear a dress on monday if not i will staple your nose! haha k byes!

FYI : i do miss you as much as you think i do cos it's true ;D

FYYI : i lurb euus idiot..

it's like jaggish and like sharp.. cos i ran my lip under it.. ppl are gonna tell meand IT'S SHARP LAHHHH.. i think i can use it to slash my wrist cos it's like so fucking sharp.. FUCKEDUPSEY!!! now how the fuck am i supposed to smile and camwhore???? i've got a freak-tooth... cos it's like fucked up and freakish.. but i seriously doubt it's gonna like freak ppl out like how fucking amywhineyfuckinghouse did to kids..

I wanna tell you this, but please don't jump out of your sit and start stabbing my chest.. PLEASE!!!!

1. I do smoke, infact i've been smoking since i was 13. Then i quitted. Then i picked it up again.

2. Yes, i did take the $50 note in the drawer.

3. I've got a tattoo. It's been there for a year now.

4. Sometimes i do call you Fuckingpunani behind your back.

5. Usually when i say "i won't do it again" i usually do do it again.

6. It's true that i've never changed abit. Still the same old moron i use to be despite telling you 500 times that i will change.

7. I've never had a CCA in my school

8. Whenever i don't pick up your calls, it doesn't really mean my battery's flat. It's just because i don't want to.

9. I do borrow some of your heels and blusher sometimes.

10. I haven't been reading the bible.

i know it's real fucked up to be my mom. but I am who I AM. If i say i'll change and not lie to you ever again then im a BIG FAT FUCKING DICK-FACE BEECH.. but still, a change is a must. even a retard knows that. it's just in the matter of time, GIVE ME SOME TIME WOMAN.. i don;t know when it's gonna happen, i seriously don't know.. but i WILL.. i fucking will.. maybe at least till im done with ITE...