life is dope, screw me!

Starvation, under-fed, stupid hair and a 12 year old kid's stick-on skull tattoo..

Oh, and did anyone realise the fact that ppl are now taking near-naked pictures of themselves

wearing their underwear and posting em on the internet? i hope your mom sees this, cos you're asian.. asian people like us don't look as good as blondes or blue eyes with a crazy hairstyle like that.. anyway, i'd have to say that that's a pretty effective way of publicising your moblie number on a nation-wide scale.. Then have 70% of the male population calling you at 3am asking for discreet services for em cos they're too poor to afford a whore.. Once again, i sincerely hope that your mum sees this shit that your doing to yourself.. maybe she'll give you a tip on getting tattoos that won't gross people out when you're 85 years old bitch.. people like you make me sick to the ass-bones.. get a life Bone-Chick.. and oh, damn.. what the fuck happened to your boobs? they fell off on their own?? That's fucking sad bitch, go opt for implants yeah ;D

Oh yeah, i tried calling that squiggle of number you wrote in your hand.. couldn't even manage to dial, maybe you're busy getting screwed in your ass or something..

miss u overload too, my dear humanoid honeydewy boyfriend..

hahahaha, just laughing at how bogart ironic my life is till now.. it's so stupid i'd make it into a comedic intro for Mr ole beans' newest english sitcom.. back back back, rewind to the last time i brushed my teeth before bed, i swear i was swearing to lose the lumps of love handles clinging on to my tummy.. it seemed like an accomplishable goal, realistic enough if i were to stop my crazy "i crave foods" eating habit and exercise 3 minutes more each day.. *bottomline*- 3mins.. 5 minutes later : i walked out of the loo and saw heaps of moist, warm chocolate muffins (freshly baked ones).. AND, savagely took down 5 of them in a row, PLUS, went to bed with chocolate stained teeth cos i felt lazy and sleepy.. OR, perhaps it's just the overload of late-night chocolate muffins taking it's satisfactory effect on my tummy ;D

How i wish i could be a vampire, least they don't seem like they'd be bothered by nuisancial things like Low-prepaid value, looking like an old granny 50 years down the road or growing fat..

cos all they do is suck blood and don't think drinking alot of blood will get you any fatter than Paris Hilton or Taylor Swift.. i think im sick of the songs on MTV, so many skanky sluts gyrating their asses on national TV and being played over and over again all over the world.. i wish for real music, just something alive and interesting.. like somthing that goes down well, like "miss u overload".. like yeah, like seriously, totally maaan.. im soooo writting a song called miss u overload..

why is the world doing this to meeeee..

i feel so lonely without hearing your voice since this afternoon.

this is not normal, it's unusual and i hate this

no prepaid + no cash to top up + no msn + no more TOUFUUUU..

just kill me, and take my last breath away like how you guys take toufu away from me..

4 years of our friendship was destroyed, to think that i won't get to hug you in my arms and

smell your stinky scent or hear your panicky panting anymore, i swear im gonna cry..

i miss my chihuahua.. *sighsssss*

i love my dog, i swear.. even though i haven't been treating him very well, i still see him like my own baby and family.. i guess im just gonna miss you terribly from this day on.. get used to life without your name, get used to home without you in the house.. take care you dick ;D hope you get along fine with furbell and hennessy at aunty kheng's house.. im sure she'll treat you llike 50 times better than how i did.. but just want to let you know, behind all the smacking and screaming, i really really love youuuuuuuuuuu....

i don't care if you peed outside my door or lick your genitals on the sofa..

cos now i won't get to see you do that shit anymore..

despite how much i wish i could now... ;C

Anyway, enough about Toufu..

im seriously trying to get him out of my mind for now, think about something else and all that..

i just feel like burying myself in a burrow.. cos i feel miserable, i hate the job that i have, i hate to have to earn so little, i hate it when i can't see you for a day or even hear your voice.. i didn't mean what i said today, if i could i'll take everything back.. sorry i said such stupid stuffs today, i was just behaving like an idiot that's all.. i went out with my parents to toa payoh, we went to have a karaoke session till 2am.. tried calling you when i see your missed calls, but you didn;t pick up.. guess you're soundly asleep now, goodnight baby.. i'll see if i can go over to your place tmr.. cos i seriously need a HUG asap.. i need to cheer up, i need You to cheer me up ;D

Love you HoneyDewSago master ;D

i swear you rock my world..................................... ;X

xoxo

Hey Hobbits ;D

I FINALLY WENT FOR SUNDAY SERVICE..

this is after a super long time that i haven't been going to church man

i was sooooo emotional, i cried, smudged my eyeliner, then cried somemore..

im back guys ;D

Celebrated nikki's birthday right after service, then together with Paul and others, we went down to Pasir Ris for a okiedokie-cooking workshop ;D

CHEESECAKE mann.. we learnt how to make our own NY cheesecake and turns out, i realised that making cheesecake is not so much of a fuss MOM.. cheap, good and yummy cheesecakes are rather easy and fast to make ;D feasible alternative for a costly b'day pressie huh?? lol..

yesTURDday, Jireh and i went to Shah's place at Bali Lane for some shishah + booze ;D

cabbed home and reached at 1.48am.. THANK GOD my mom was in her chill-mode man, if not i'd be facing a cold dark death.. like, WTH man.. curfew's 12 beech... however i guess Nabins is still and ultimately a nice place to chillout man, good music, exquisitely decored and authentic arabian food with booze + shisha together with a bombshell NS bloke who keeps looking out for hot models to make friends with, the night was rather doopeshit.. but unfortunately for him, shopping turns out to be the last thing on our minds ;DD and, no luck in his quest to win a date with a model, or any chick...

okay.. school's tmr maan... shit uhhhhh

hope i get to wale up in time i guess ;DDD

GOSH FAG.

im sure you don';t know how i feel..

not to point fingers at anyone, but YOU just soooooooo conveniently FUCKED ME UP!

RAJ ,

im begging you asshole, just fuck off my life and DIE

i don't need any motherfucker to tell me what to do.

i know you're a motherfucking BIG FUCK in the past

but i REALLY REALLY REALLY don't need you to tell me off

at every FUCKING thing i do.. i don't give a fuck on what you think

you can go suck some fucking balls and fuck some bloody

disgusting GEYLANG OR KALLANG WATEVER FUCKING whore for all i care.... just don't you DARE EVER touch me..

YOU DIRTY MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!

FRIEND ,

FUCK OFF.. thanks for being such great FRIENDS ;D and replacing my only existence with some fucking PUNANI whom you claimed you FUCKING hated........ but UN- hated after a fucking lifetime.. i love you guys for being such two-faced dickheads and treating me like fucking spats of birdshits which you revolt at sight.. thank a whole lot dumbasses.. thanks for barely contacting me for 100 years and embracing that FAGGOT.. ;D come lick my shit you fucking blowjobs.. cunts

THE IIDIOTS WHO JUST WANT SEX ,

thanks for fucking around, now.. GO GET SOME AIDS YOU FUCKING FAGGG...

don't expect me to give you any honey... im not so fucking RETARDED to go lick your disgusting BALLS wormhole..

YOU,

maybe you should start putting yourself in my fucking shoes. im a FUCKED UP girl, LOSER in life and fuckingly in LOVE with you.. i've got problems you don;t even KNOW OF. and i try my fucking best to hide them becos i don;t wanna let you think how fucked up is this bitch you're in love with. i hate myself for all the empty promises i've made.. IMMA GO FUCK MYSELF FOR THAT.. but maybe, JUST maybe.. try putting yourself in my stinking damned shoes and you'll understand why i FUCKING wanna go stick a cow up my ass .. im sick and tired of myself, hence i need to fucking drown myself in alcohol, ciggs and cow dung shits and LIES.. im just as fucked up as you feel.. WHERE ARE YOU? you know how FUCKING much i need you now???? i wanna shit myself in the pants.. IT'S SOOO PAINFUL THAT I CAN BARELY HEAR MYSELF SCREAMING.. yes i've hurt you alot.. but does that shows that im a selfish bitch who just wanna kill you and see you die?? well, just so you know.. IM IN JUST AS MUCH PAIN TOO ;D whether you understand or not.. Bottom line : i love you more than anything else in this world.. other that God, my Mom and satisfaction.. and i hope this is gonna make you understand.

MAMA:

God know what the fuck to do with you.. talk about fucking ETHICS. woo, too bad.. doubt you have any FUCKING idea about that.. you are a fucking annoying piece of SHIT you know that??go get a fucking life before you retire as a piece of shit.. STOP RUINING MY LIFE.. i wanna earn money to support myself too you know that FUCKER? now everyone is as FUCKED up as you FATASS MOTHER OF ALL SLUTS>>>

just kill me and take me away from this raging storm.. i'd rather die than get drowned by all these problems.. work life relationships and habits.. whatever happened to LIFE.. the friendlier one, i mean..

Ps: thanks JIN for being such an AWESOME dude for me ;D keep smiling and maybe you'll cheer me up too ;D